on a Vision Quest Retreat
Do we run from the present moment because reality is too much to bear?
I have run away from home to focus on my Vision… so for about the next 7 days I will be chronicling my self imposed Vision Quest Retreat. My agenda? 1) follow my instincts, 2) work on the curriculum for the upcoming Vision Quest Retreats, 3) finish writing the story of how I came to be living my Vision for the book, 4) be in the moment, enjoy, chill, and record it all on this blog, twitter, and in my private travel journal.
The highlight of this day so far was my morning swim. I arose at about 6:00, sat on the little verandah off my room to watch the sun come up over the mountains. After she made her dramatic appearance bringing the day with her I decided to walk down the hill to the glassy bay for a swim. The water was cool and refreshing as I pushed off from the shore. The plan was to swim along the shoreline to the end of the cove and back. Within minutes I was caught up in a swarm of tiny silver minnows. I descended into their midst just to enjoy them. It was like a rainstorm but the raindrops had been replaced by fish all moving and changing direction as if with one mind reacting to something I could not see. Different numbers of them moved in different directions creating currents and every time they moved a burst of silver could be seen. Of course my being there meant that I created a hole in the middle of this storm and they all kept a safe distance. I was surrounded on all sides so I could turn slowly in the water and just watch them. I felt or perhaps imagined that I was Mami Wata surrounded by my minions. A silly perhaps, yet delightful thought to have.
Eventually I did continue my swim. It felt good to exercise my body buoyed by the gentle water…no real agenda…just to move and breath and be present in the moment. Being in the moment…staying in the moment…always returning to the moment. I realized the other day that there is so much in each moment. Each and everymoment is pregnant with more than I can handle sometimes. Maybe that is our challenge with staying in the moment…maybe life just seems like too much sometime. I will be paying attention to this over the next several days. Paying attention to each moment to see how much I can take. How much can I bear?
Vision Quest Survey Report: as of today, 127 women have completed it! My Goal= 1000.
(first posted 6.29.09)
