The View from Our Room
Greetings from sunny Los Angeles!
I have come here for a few days for reasons known and unknown. As usual the unknown is slowly revealing itself to me.
I am feeling intense joy today on the path of living my Vision. And I am doing just that…living my Vision. You see LA is a very big part of my story. It was the quest of my Vision that first brought me out here in 1993. I came out here to attend graduate school (in Clinical Psychology) but the underlying attraction of LA and why I was drawn here was because I saw this as a place where people flouted convention, instead choosing to follow their passions and to, as I call it, live from the inside out. I always sensed that there was a spirit of adventure and entrepreneurship here and that excited me. I wanted this. Did I find what I came for back then? Yes, actually I did and so much more. The “more” is a story for another time.
So today I am in LA for two reasons (that I know of); 1) to spend a few days focusing on my Visions work i.e. writing my book, preparing for our first Women’s Vision Quest Retreat (Oct. 23-25 in Berkeley Springs, WV), and 2) to spend time with the man I am in love with. I mention this second reason, although not the focus of this blog, because it is a very important aspect of my life’s Vision.
Before beginning work today I just wanted to write this post to share this moment. One aspect of living a successful life is to share our stories with others. For me this means sharing the struggles and the triumphs. What follows is an excerpt from my personal journal in which I attempt, as best as I can, to capture my feelings in this moment.
8.26.09 “Good morning G*d/G*ddess. Thanks for waking me up this morning and thanks for all the blessings in my life. I am bursting with joy…forgot how much I love LA. This place is a huge part of my story. I’m a bit too overwhelmed by memory to capture it on paper, but it has to do with realized and unrealized dreams in this city and with my Visions that are now being born. My tears have to do with being so young, happy and free when I was here. They also have to do with being so connected to my Higher Power and to being in love with _______. The tears are especially about my dreams having come true and being so acutely aware of this. I am now living the life I always dreamed of…adventure, love, doing the work I love. Something has come over me…acute happiness, coming full circle. I’m in a state of suspended animation…in a bubble of such intense clarity pregnant with joy and wonder at it all. I am so overwhelmed and have no idea what to do with all this bliss. I can only do what the voice in the dream I had in Paris told me to do…’expand into the joy.’ ”
I close this entry by expressing my desire to never move from this spot, but of course that is not the nature of life…so I will move on and try to take up the work of the day. As always I will report on my progress later.
Until then I wish you continued success and well being.
(first posted 8.26.09)
